Monday, December 11, 2017

Oh No....Now What??

It is the end of 2017 and  I am entering a new phase as an empty nester. I have to wonder...what happened to the last few years of my life? a few years ago it seemed as though life was moving along quite nicely, I was content and looking forward to the future...that is until something similar to Lemony Snicket seemed to start a series of unfortunate events that left me reeling and seemingly lost.

I am not sure it is even worth re-hashing some of the life altering events that brought me to this spot but they included a job change (that became two), a marriage and subsequent divorce (not mine), the loss of my father (utterly devastating),  the death of my brother (shocking), and me trying desperately to keep it together...I think I failed.

Don't get me wrong, there were many events for us to celebrate during this time.
  •  After a number of losses Tiffani gave birth to Gunner James who fills me with as much delight as his brother Austin, they are lights of my life and can take full credit for keeping me smiling and my heart filled with gratitude. She has been hired on with Fraser Valley Health and starts a full time position in February...I am so grateful for her and how she is able to overcome the number of obstacles thrown her way. 
  • We are preparing to formally add the lovely Corinne to our family in the upcoming year, not only is Jordan marrying the love of his life but is now in Regina fulfilling his dream of becoming an RCMP officer... he makes my heart swell with pride and my eyes a wee bit teary.
  • Joce is also making changes in his life that take tremendous strength and are making him happier and  more content than I have seen him in a very long time... my mommy's heart is overjoyed and proud at his courage. 
  • Mom has found happiness and companionship by moving to Calgary to be closer to family...we miss her but I am glad she is living life to the fullest!
All of these events bring me joy, they remind me that I am indeed more than blessed.

The question that remains is now what?

There are many things I have neglected over the past couple of years (my love of blogging for one), that it is hard to decide where to start my journey. It is odd to think that the house will be quiet and the mess will be mine...it is sad to think that I am now really alone (thank goodness for grandchildren and sleepovers!!)...

So for now I write about it, I will remember to pick up a book once a day, I will think of a few unusual things I have always wanted to do, I will decide on my word for 2018 and I will learn to take care of me (such a foreign concept). One of these days I will tell you all about the surgery that almost killed me yet was the catalyst for bringing me back...until then it seems that I have a few decisions to make on how to fill my new nest.