I wonder if there will ever be a time when I am able to rest...not lay on the couch for an afternoon or sleep in but truly REST!! Every time I think that life must settle down a new set of circumstances arise and the chaos begins.
I was naive in thinking that once the moves were over things would settle down...that was not to be. With Tif's move came a change not only in address but in marital status, she is doing wonderfully and I am so proud of her but my mommy heart cannot help but break...I know all too well how difficult the next years can be. In an instant her life is changed...
Jordan is graduating and I am feeling bad that I cannot be like the other parents who are being extravagant in a gift that shows how proud they are...oh I am proud, the man that he is becoming brings me to a teary eyed bundle, he is kind, considerate, caring, funny, responsible...the list goes on and on....I just do not have the means to financially show him how proud I am and he understands this...another reason to be incredibly proud of him. The surprise gift that God gave me so many years ago has brought me great joy. He has seemingly changed in an instant....
A couple of weeks ago there was an accident, no one was hurt but the car...it was simply a moment of inattention but in an instant the car was no longer running which brought yet another set of inconveniences. I am not mad about the car but it reminds me once more of how quickly things can change. Thank you Lord that no one was hurt, so much can change in a instant.....
This week I got some news that cannot be fully shared but please believe me when I say this news is sobering to say the least....a young and talented man who has been fighting a deadly battle with cancer found that he cannot win....His life, and that of those who love him were changed in just a instant....
As I struggled with the past month of change I realized that there is little that does not change...the one constant, the one that never changes is our Lord...God who loves us and is unfailing and constant in all He does...
16 Now when people take an oath, they call on someone greater than themselves to hold them to it. And without any question that oath is binding. 17 God also bound himself with an oath, so that those who received the promise could be perfectly sure that he would never change his mind. 18 So God has given both his promise and his oath. These two things are unchangeable because it is impossible for God to lie. Therefore, we who have fled to him for refuge can have great confidence as we hold to the hope that lies before us.
Hebrews 6:16-18 NLT
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