A number of years ago I instead started picking a word, something to help me remain fixed on the areas I felt needed to be changed up a bit.... Balance reminded me to guard my time and use it wisely, Nurture reminded me that relationships needed to be fostered in order to be healthy and grow, Focus reminded me to concentrate on one thing at a time and not to spread myself too thin...these are just a couple but you get the idea.
Each year I write down word after word looking for the one that inspires me to make changes with simple clarity. I look up the definitions until one resonates, a singular focus on which to put my effort into for the upcoming year. I look for one that can have impact on all areas of my life - mental, physical, emotional, relational, spiritual, and financial..sometimes the word is obvious and others it requires a lot of effort to find just the right one.
This year as I searched the same word kept coming up but it did not seem to have the definition I yearned for.....yet there it was.....
re·store [rəˈstôr] verb
1) bring back (a previous right, practice, custom, or situation); reinstate:
2) return (someone or something) to a former condition, place, or position:
3) repair or renovate (a building, work of art, vehicle, etc.) so as to return it to its original condition:
4) give (something previously stolen, taken away, or lost) back to the original owner or recipient:
I realized that my past gives me character, empathy and helps define who I am, I do not want a new me, I want a restored me. . . I want to restore my ability to have fun, I want to restore my health, I want to restore my faith, I want to restore my confidence. . . I want to polish and restore myself, I want to come out feeling beautiful & restored.
As I move forward in 2018 I am looking to find some of myself that has been lost during the many tough years. . . I will work on restoration.
Each year I write down word after word looking for the one that inspires me to make changes with simple clarity. I look up the definitions until one resonates, a singular focus on which to put my effort into for the upcoming year. I look for one that can have impact on all areas of my life - mental, physical, emotional, relational, spiritual, and financial..sometimes the word is obvious and others it requires a lot of effort to find just the right one.
This year as I searched the same word kept coming up but it did not seem to have the definition I yearned for.....yet there it was.....
re·store [rəˈstôr] verb
1) bring back (a previous right, practice, custom, or situation); reinstate:
2) return (someone or something) to a former condition, place, or position:
3) repair or renovate (a building, work of art, vehicle, etc.) so as to return it to its original condition:
4) give (something previously stolen, taken away, or lost) back to the original owner or recipient:
I pondered this word and wondered why it was the one I kept going back to, it was not quite what I was looking for and yet it was the word that appeared over and over (I have learned that sometimes I do not get to pick my word, it picks me). As I gave it more thought I realized that for me restoration means to bring something back to its original beauty while celebrating the flaws and the scars. . . and I have many flaws and scars.
I realized that my past gives me character, empathy and helps define who I am, I do not want a new me, I want a restored me. . . I want to restore my ability to have fun, I want to restore my health, I want to restore my faith, I want to restore my confidence. . . I want to polish and restore myself, I want to come out feeling beautiful & restored.As I move forward in 2018 I am looking to find some of myself that has been lost during the many tough years. . . I will work on restoration.
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